After the friendship was over, I believed I could make similar friendships based only on transparency and acceptance of each others’feelings. However, I was wrong. I tried on several occasions but nothing came of it. When I realized I would never experience such states again, I was in despair. It felt like a huge cavern had been carved out in my being to hold the fulness I had stumbled upon, and now it was empty. I didn’t believe it would ever be filled again.